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Elegy for Ed Erwin

I hadn’t heard from Ed since right after his unexpected surgery. He’d sent me a technicolor headshot showing how he looked when post-operative. Pretty banged up. I didn’t realize that it would be his wordless explanation for ending further communication … Continue reading

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The Gang’s All Here

In honor of the new year, I’ve been catching up by phone with some of the friendships that have lasted for the long term. One friend has been in my life since we were both students at the now-defunct High … Continue reading

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The Old Year Resolved

Since I had the afternoon free, I thought it would be interesting to reread my journal entries from 12/30/22 to the present evening. How had the past year gone for me personally? Actually, I’d expected to find chasms that had … Continue reading

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Our Broken Stories

It’s Christmas Eve, which prompts a medley of reflections. On the one hand, for Christians it’s the night when the child is born who will redeem the world from sin. For Jews on the other hand, Nittel Nacht was the … Continue reading

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Has the Whole World Been Blessed?

Let’s start where the story starts. Abram is living in Ur of the Chaldees when, without explanation or preamble, God – the God of history – says to him, get up, get out of there and go where I send … Continue reading

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Where’d My World Go?

The world in which I came of age, learned to be a young woman, and entered my chosen academic field of philosophy, did not include provisions for people who hated Jews and wanted them dead. Hitler lost the War – … Continue reading

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My Journey Within

Earlier today, in a momentous break with recent routine, I set aside time to be with me, Abbie. My aim was to step outside the drumbeat of each-hour-taken-over-by-its-ineluctable-task. I wanted to bracket all the tasks and ask the question: Am … Continue reading

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I Dreamed I Saw Hitler Last Night

Make no mistake, in my whole life Hitler has never appeared in any dream or daydream of mine. I don’t think about Hitler. He’s not in the iconography of my consciousness. This was also the first time I’d seen him … Continue reading

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The Color of the Sky

We were in California this past week where from time to time Jerry and I go for neuropathy treatments for me that actually help. Since October 7, the color of the sky has changed for me, so I was glad … Continue reading

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